Tuesday, June 3, 2008
back from band chalet..one the most f*** up chalet i've been to..
the chalet mood not there lar..
didn't look forward to it, didn't expect anything from it like the other chalets i've been to..
and so many shit happened..
the yr 3s are leaving..
thank them alot..
hilmi
keng guan
yvonne
farhana
yi yu
chuek yin
darren
things started going bad,
yvonne lost her phone,
new committee the TEACHERS created came out was OMG agreed by the people at the beach and others.. u shld have seen the faces of the condutors, mr wong and mr lim... heh..
honestly i'm freakin happy mei mei took up the student conductor post..
i feel f***ed up cuz they created some stupid post for me to take..
project manager..
which band has that..
u tell me plan events and shit, please u do that as a whole band ex-co not as an individual...
i'm not jealous, emo or sad but i just dun like people to wanna make u feel good then give u some funny title..
i rather juz be a normal member like that..
concentrate on my playin and be a better, greater trombone player..
and worse is wad...
f*** u everytime tell me self initiate things for the band, i did and no one noes it was from me cuz u are the ones that announce it...
act like one idiot in band juz to make band more lively..
tryin my best to make pple like band..
u told me u wanted band to be diplomatic...
but the way i see things now is that it is goin autocratic..
man i'm not superman nor a tool.. use my strength and stuff then dump me a side..
if thats the way u 2 tink the band will move ahead
by all means..
i will juz watch and not do anything..
need me to play fine..
ask me to do things now...
F*** OFF...
u all came out with the decisions u all bare the consequences..
maybe i will leave like others quietly..
anyway..
i now can be of no use to the band liao
they will still survive with or without me..
now i dun feel the band...
i wanted to leave then when my 2 bros left...
i tot i could try to continue bring the band up...
fine.. i try, seen shit, eat shit ,gave shit...
who see man...F*** who see u tell me..
the band got thru their concerts and stuff...
to be honest man i dun even want to go for NBC now...
dun feel like even goin for band..
smiles on my face, sorrow and anger inside of me...
AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH...!!!!!!!!!!
maybe a outside band would be so much better..
free from teachers...
free from wad im feeling now...
i had dreams, i had aspirations, goals for the band.. but everything to me now seems so cloudy..
haha.. maybe its time for me to go to some other cca or do other things..
who noes..
anyway damn tired now...
havin headache drank too much durin the chalet..
but feels good off the sorrows..
been a long time since i drank..
heh.. the chalet got arcade..
so we went to play..
jonathan and freakin dance and jerrold can freakin play games with joystick...
then in the morning..
most of them go skool the rest of us we laugh like wad sia..
susu..
she laugh until she like cryin ar...
then we went off when the person came to check..
came home first thing i did was..
sleep..
well tml got accounts dunno goin or not..
then maybe goin daryl's house to taunt..
thurs got band.. sian..
fri got this youth camp bryant ask me to go till mon...
anyone interested tell me...
10:04 PM By CY aka cher young
