Friday, August 15, 2008
changed songholiday by boys like girls
damn..
cannot upload some photos dunno got some problem..
argh this few days..
cy damn damn damn damn sad and down...
tues bought my lg ks 20..
finally had a proper phone to use..
wed..
skool was still okie...
band prac stopped after national day
but had meeting..
after the band met, the teachers said they wanted to see me..
mr lim told me to wait for 10 mins..
but i end up waited for nearly an hour just to met them caused they needed to met others..
and when they met me..
THEY SCOLDED AND REPRIMANDED ME!!
the shot me like someone shot them in the butt and now they wanna get their revenge and shoot mine..
y..
becaused i cocked up on the national day performance..
u think i wanted it..
firstly.. no one i say no one wanted to the national day..
suppose to be the presidents that suppose to do..
but where were they..
su say stressed by studies..
zane le..
where the hell is him all the time..
yar.. he has his commitment.. so...
nobody did anything..
so how..
i had to do it..
so there.. i had to handle the stress of the president, the vice and my own position..
i had to see the colours and faces of the necs, the nec teachers, mr singh, the parade, the band teachers.. most of all the band..
the band have some problems, people want to quit, sections got problems, misunderstanding..
when i found out..
i talked to them one by one.. ask them to relax, compromise..
it hurts me so much to see them like that..
all this happened way even before national day..
on national day i tried my best for the parade..
mr wong had to suddenly left cause he had his own concert..
i was left with the band..
i did not have proper rehearsal with them..
the ONLY rehearsal was on the wed b4 national day...
i had less then 30 mins with them, half the time sorting out where they sat..
i did not go thru all the songs with them..
national day i cocked up...
and then now the teachers scold me as though i did it on purpose..!!!
wth lar..
and worst they ask me to write a letter and apology if my poor performance..
they shld jolly well noe the conductor left so last min and i never worked with the band b4..
i noe i suppose to be the ai zai(power and steady) one but if all the work and pressure could be taken away from me..
people did wat they supose to do..
i may not need to stress so much..
anway i wrote the letter and entertained them..
that night...
i didn't sleep the whole night..
i talked to hilmi and mr wong..
i felt so hurt..
very hurt..
i cried..
i was very tired and weak by morning..
i stll bathed and went to skool..
reached before 7.30am met the teachers..
hilmi asked me to tell them how i felt..
i haven say wad i wanted to say totally then it was time for skool..
i talked to them till i cried..
they are the FIRST 2 teachers to make me cry..
from pri sch till now..
no teachers made me cry in band or for band b4..
mrs chai saw i cried when she walked out of the staff room..
b4 goin to class for irp..
she talked to me..
the remembered the very first time i saw her i didn't liked her..
but till today..
she is one of the teachers i liked...
so after i talked to her she told me to pen down my tots and feelings..
so i went to class for irp..
but the pain the hurt was still there..
i went class the moment i entered i couldn't take it..
ytd was the first time i cried in front if my classmates..
srry for the unglam moments but i couldn't take it..
well i really loved my class..
they cared for me..
well..
the day still had to go on..
with the tired body and broken heart i carried on the day..
i wrote my feelings down and gave mrs chai..
it helped so much..
then mr lim smsed me..
dunno them lar..
but i guess after this i would be much stronger..
i guess i broke down cause of the stressed i had to carry...
1 person carrying more then 40 pples stress, my studies (i really didn't do well for mid year as i was too occupied and kept thinking of band), council..
some want to quit council caused of certain people..
and these people who wanted to quit are close buds..
well..
i think i added too much pressure and stress to myself..
but i noe..
i have my friends and families..
they are my pillars of strength and i hope to be their pillar of strength too..
well..
im more concern abt the band..
heck the teachers in charge...
heh...
the youngs one means alot to me..
^^
if i have such in experience and loser teachers..
then fine..
if they hurt me i dun care..
but if they hurt the young ones like how they hurt me, they will get it from me..
today i woke up..
after more then 40 hrs not sleeping and finally sleepin last night,
this morning i had a very bad headache and i my muscles were all very tense..
went to the doc..
damn scary can..
the doc looked very serious after i told her wad happened to me..
then when i go collect medicine there was onli one type of medication..
the pharmecist was smiling..
when he looked at my medicine he suddenly looked damn serious..
then he said..
take onli when necessary..
and he said it twice and he looked at me seriously..
the medicine had a very different packaging..
and the medicine was damn power..
first time i take a medicine that made me so sleepy so fast..
the effect damn huge and fast..
lol..
the packagin i wll show u all when i can upload pics..
also i saw my ex sec fren..
haha she also was sick..
anyway also.. singapore beat korea..!!!!!
entering the final at least gonna have a gold or silver
it is like in the whole olympics..
finally.. haha..
saw her blog..
she is sad and angry..
dun like to see her like that..
wanna see her be happy and smile..
her cheerfulness brightens up my day..
hope she will be okie soon..
9:03 PM By CY aka cher young
